Sailing, the wind and I. Just us.
Since I’m about 14 years old, my dad has been taking my family and I on the Champlain Lake to sail. My dad is passionate about sailing. Last summer we went every two weeks for about 3 days, on a sailing boat that my dad rented, a 42 ft long sailing boat. We had our rooms and we were free. Next summer, we are going again and I can’t help but think of how amazing it will be. I just love the feeling of the wind on my skin. The feeling when you look around and all you see is water, the deep blue sky and birds flying around. I always sit on the front part of the boat, I read a book and listen to some amazing music that I only listen when I’m there so I can associate the feeling everytime I listen to these songs. I sleep, mostly. Why? Because I don’t feel anxious or sad. I just feel free, with all the oportunities, no problems. I put everything on hold for 3 days and I just breathe. Knowing me, you would know how hard it is for me to do that.
I had to talk about it, because its a part of me that will never go away. Sailing is my love, I fell in love with sailing the second I felt the wind on my cheeks.
I have amazing news. On december 19 I’m going for a couple of days to Rimouski qc, and I’m so happy. My best friend lives there and he asked me if I wanted to come. I went there last year and I had the best time ever. I felt freedom and adventure. I saw amazing landscapes and I thought, why not share the photos I took there last year with you before I leave. Thats where I felt, for the first and only time in my life, infinite.
Over the past few weeks I’ve been stuck in my house, doing my homeworks and dreaming about nature, the forest and beautiful landscapes. I just want to take a few seconds to post these amazing photos that I got the chance to take when I went to Mont – Mansfield in Vermont a couple of weeks ago. The feeling I got the whole time I was climbing was perfection. I was forgetting about the world, my problems, my anxiety and felt so much lighter. All the weights on my shoulders just went away. I was climbing just litteraly climbing because we took the craziest trail ever and it felt amazing. I was bleeding from the scratches on my arms and all but I didn’t care. I had all the opportunities, all the possibilities, I felt like I could go anywere and be who ever I wanted. That’s the feeling I want forever…. In life.
I stoped wondering why things happen even if I never wanted them to. Karma is always a part of life and it will never go away. I just have to act for the good and it’ll be alright. After high school, things fell apart. My friends turned their backs on me and anxiety took place. So last week I realised something important. I have to stop thinking about the past. The past is over and the futur is not here yet. I usualy wait for the good things to happen and end up asking myself why bad things happen to me. We are all magnets, we attrack positive things when we have a positive energie. Life is not all planned. The futur is always in motion. Today I choose to be happy, if something unexpected happens. Well I’ll be greatfull If I see what positive outcome it has on my life. Bad things gives me energie, experience and I can take it as a motivation for progress. The good things, they provide me so many good feelings and emotions. I use to always focus on the bad but from now on, I’ll focus on the good or take it as an inspiration to be better. So I don’t think that by laying in my bed all day waiting and wondering when something amazing is going to happen?.. I’ll be able to make my dreams come true, find myself a perpose etc. Thats why I’ve created this page. I will post all the good moments and great things I do over here. We have to accept with serenity the things we canot change an certainly take advantage of the power we have over the things we can change.